March 12, 2020

Sherman Alexie

A DISPATCH FROM SEATTLE

or, Nervous in the Hot Zone

Yes, we’re scared but we also make
      zombie apocalypse jokes
By texts. I don’t know when I’ll see
      my friends in person again.

We don’t want to panic and overreact
      but we don’t want
To underreact. Some of my friends
      are still hosting parties.

Some of them are still planning
      to take their previously
Scheduled trips overseas. Some are
      the polite looters

Who are buying all the toilet paper
      in Seattle.
“Good for you,” I text to one of them.
      “You’ll be

The most hygienic and well-stocked
      shitter in the city.”
Some of my fellow Native Americans
      are performing

The highly sacred Indigenous shrug,
      as in, “Dude,
They’re not giving us smallpox
      blankets.”

But, hey, it’s the Trumps. Their
      wicked incompetence
And delusional arrogance is
      striking us

With smallpox of the soul.
      I try to listen
Only to the health experts,
      but the dipshits,

Conspiracy theorists, partisan
      hacks, trolls,
And the mentally ill dominate
      the discourse,

As they always do. How did
      we get to a place
Where the borderline personalities
      get quoted

As if they were experts by borderline
      journalists
Who also act as if they’re experts,
      as well?

Maybe the true pandemic is
      immodesty.
Maybe the true pandemic is
      the loss

Of a shared and common
      decency.
But, hell, that’s big talk
      for someone

Like me, who just angrily,
      impulsively,
And paranoidly bought
      $500 worth

Of canned food. And yet,
      I also know
That people are good. I know
      that most of us

Will reflexively switch
      into kindness
Mode. That’s what humans,
      at their best,

Have almost always done.
      In the meantime,
Here I am, re-binging on Parks
      and Recreation

As I serve myself another bowl
      of lactose-free
Ice cream and rhyme my way
      through self-quarantine.

from Poets Respond
March 12, 2020

__________

Sherman Alexie: “I live in Seattle so coronavirus, coronavirus, coronavirus.” (web)

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June 4, 2009

Sherman Alexie

SCARLET

The barista’s acne is torrential—
A perfect storm. Whatever potential

She has for beauty has been obscured
By the open wounds that resemble burns.

And yet, as I look closer, I can see
This young woman is quite pretty

Behind her mask. Her eyes are turquoise,
Not some common blue, and her alto voice

Belongs onstage or in the studio.
She makes my coffee and I want to know

Why, in this new age of dermatology,
She suffers this morbid case of acne.

Has she seen the infomercials about creams
And soaps that will make any face clean?

Where doctors and rock stars share laughter
At photos that show the before and after,

And if you want the cure, call this number?
This scarred woman forces me to remember

That my skin was nearly as pocked and razed.
I once counted forty-four zits on my face,

But I was rez-poor and health care was shitty.
I didn’t live in a first world city,

So why does this woman look like this?
She’s uninsured and untreated, I guess,

Like so many others, but her poverty
Has brutally tattooed her. I’m sorry,

But there’s nothing comforting I can say
To a Hester painted with a different “A.”

But, hell, maybe this woman would just scorn
My pretentious allusion to Hawthorne.

She might be an everyday sort of brave,
And possess no want or need to be saved,

Examined, and pitied by the likes of me,
A poet who pays, over tips, and flees.

But then I pause at the door and look back
To see the woman use a fingernail to attack

Her skin. She digs and digs at what wounds her,
Seeking clarity, but nothing will soothe her.

Estranged from the tribe that gives no protection,
What happens to the soul that hates its reflection?

from Rattle #30, Winter 2008

__________

Sherman Alexie: “One morning, when I was sixteen, I was so disgusted by my horrible acne and consumed with self-loathing that I used a heated sewing needle to lance a huge pimple on my chin. I hadn’t thought much about my ritual scarring until I saw the tragically-acned barista in a Seattle coffee shop. I wanted to help her—to get her some friggin’ health insurance—but all I could do is write her a poem.” (web)

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