November 17, 2011

Gabrielle Mittelbach

ONIONS

We ran out of onions again.
I searched the racks in the fridge
and in the drawers and in the cabinets
and in the basket on the counter
which offered only dry white skins
as useless and discarded as
a basket of fingernail clippings.

Someone once said the mind
is like an onion, layer upon layer,
fold upon fold all neatly packed
and compartmentalized. And so,
with my sharpest knife
and an exquisite hunger,
I chopped through my mind.

Gently, I sliced it in half and
cut off the hard protruding ends.
I peeled off the scaly outer shell.
The part you can’t cook with
unless you are under extreme stress
and you don’t notice that you are chewing
paper with mold spots and blemishes.

Underneath, the onion has a special kind
of white veined and porous beauty,
the crisp cold snap of a frozen lake,
silent and surrounded by white branches.
Each raw layer is wrapped in it’s own
transparent silky shawl made of ice and lace.

And it’s no wonder that when you chop it,
no matter how hard you try to prevent it,
no matter how much bread you stuff
in your mouth or how long you soak it,
the tears flow out like melting snow.

from Rattle #25, Summer 2006

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May 31, 2009

Gabrielle Mittelbach

THE BEGINNING OF A LONG NIGHT

Someday I will miss this, I know.
I will miss the dog hairs on my bed
and the bed clothes rumpled into a tent
when I get home from work at six o’clock.
I’ll miss the yellow crayon scribbled
on the TV screen that’s been there
since Kids-Eat-Free night at Denny’s.

I will miss the odor of burnt mustard,
exploded marshmallows and the thick coils
of smoke that emanated from the microwave
on that seemingly quiet afternoon. My son
laughed at me for an hour after that incident.
He repeated my moans of horror over and over,
like when I read him his favorite book again and again.

Now it is past midnight and he is beside me
in his Batman pajamas and his snores
lull me like the gentle motion of a late night
car ride home and I complain, I know.
I complain about how he snores and how,
when he sleeps, his little feet always seem
to find their way to the crook of my neck.

It’s not so far off that I will miss them,
those little feet. Someday, I will watch them
as they walk away from me slowly, surely,
farther and farther into the distance. I will
think of them late at night, on a night like this
and I will wonder how far they have walked
and who’s neck they have found to touch.

from Rattle #27, Summer 2007

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Gabrielle Mittelbach: “I think writing poetry is like discovering an underground labyrinth. Each time I go in, I want to go deeper.”

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