June 12, 2020

Dan Gerber

WHAT I REMEMBER OF WORLD WAR II

I was born the day before the first
air raid on Briton and, of course, remember

nothing of that. But I remember
everything that was spoken about

the war and the way people looked
when they spoke about it. I remember

the German prisoner-of-war camp in
our little town, only a few blocks

from our house, remember from the
black and white newsreel film, the

Nazi Stuka dive bombers, screaming
through sirens fixed on their wings

to make their deadly terror even
more terrible to those about to die

and to those who remembered the
terrified dying, and the scars, if only

in the memories of those telling it and
the names from the radio and the

ink-soaked names on the front
pages of the newspapers I picked up

from the sidewalk—Al Alamein,
Corregidor, Saipan, Tarawa, Bastogne,

Buchenwald, Guadalcanal, Dresden, Iwo
Jima, The Bulge, Hiroshima, Dunkirk,

remember the young men in khaki
who came to our house to see my sister,

the off-duty guards from the prison camp
who came to drink and play pinochle

with my mother and Martha, my nanny—
my father away in Washington for the war—

the jokes and laughter through
the haze of Camels and Lucky Strikes,

and the blue stars in the windows of
families with fathers, husbands, and sons

away in the war and two of those stars
turning gold for Mrs. Jackson across

the street whose husband’s destroyer went down
in the Coral Sea, and Mrs. Keller, catty-

corner to our house, whose son Jack
burned up in the sky over Dresden,

the fox holes I dug in the sand at
our cottage where I waited for the Jap

ships to loom up on the far Lake Michigan
horizon, remember the piercing blue

of the morning glories against the
whitewashed fence out our kitchen

door where I stood when I heard
on the radio of a great bomb

dropped on Japan, and a few days
later, when my mother gave me the

key to open a neighbor’s cottage for
two men delivering a mattress and

how the one walking backwards as
he carried the front end of it said,

“Hey kid, did you hear, the war’s
over?” And I ran back up the long drive,

the road so much longer and the
gravel deeper, running home to

tell my mom that now everything
would be all right, forever.

from Rattle #67, Spring 2020

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Dan Gerber: “When I was twelve years old, miserable and lonely, living away from home in a place I didn’t want to be, I read a poem—Walter De La Mare’s ‘The Listeners’—that filled me with mystery and, for a while, took me beyond my wretched little self and saved me with the idea that I might make something out of words that could create, in myself at least, the feeling and the vision I’d received from that poem. Poetry made me want to go on living back then, and it still does.”

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January 27, 2016

Dan Gerber

SUMMERS WITH MARTHA

I spent those dream-like summers with Martha
in a cottage on Lake Michigan,
the year Ike beat Taft and the awful
summer they killed the Rosenbergs.
Martha smoked her Chesterfields
and knitted through nights of crickets
and whispers along the shore
while Jack Eigen talked on the radio
broadcast from The Chez Paree
across the water in Chicago—
and in the morning, Seems Like Old Times,
the trombone glissading its soprano,
into Arthur Godfrey and His Friends.

She appeared and vanished
according to my mother’s curious compass reading
of where my affections might lie.
She talked to me about my mother’s anger,
the way women are and the mysteries
men and boys could never understand,
about her childhood in Escanaba—
her not-unhappy, long, unmarried life,
and about Doug, who appeared
from the adjoining room
at The Drake when she took me to Chicago.

Doug astounded me
while we sat one night by a campfire on the beach,
stabbing himself and laughing
while the jack-knife quivered in his prosthetic thigh.
“He needs my care,” she explained about
her empty bed in the room we shared.
“Doug’s illness,” accounted for the cries
and whispers through the wall.

Then slowly, there was less of Doug to love.
The following summer in Detroit
he dragged himself on crutches—
both legs dead-wood now—
and the summer after that he was in a wheelchair—
his empty coat sleeve pinned to his lapel—
Then the summer we went nowhere,
and there was no Doug.

I never told my mother about Doug
when she quizzed me on my travels with Martha,
because Martha and I had our secrets,
because I didn’t want to lose those summers,
and finally because
there was nothing more to tell.

A summer came when Martha didn’t return,
another summer, and another two.

Then a small package arrived from Seattle
with a letter—
from Doug’s little sister it said—
an Inuit, stone carving of a woman’s face
emerging from the dorsal
of a dolphin with a chipped-off tail—
“Martha asked me to send you this,”
the letter said,
“She said you were someone she loved,
that was all, and that you’d love this little stone fish.
It keeps a secret, she said.”

from Rattle #50, Winter 2015

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Dan Gerber: “I write poems because it’s my way of paying attention to the life of the worlds in and around me. I’d call it my religion, if religion is defined as the way one lives one’s life.”

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July 7, 2012

Dan Gerber

ON MY SEVENTIETH BIRTHDAY

Let everything happen to you:
           beauty and terror.
Only press on: no feeling is final.
           —Rilke

I read that tens of thousands of people
have drowned in Bangladesh
and that a million more
may die from isolation, hunger, cholera,
and its sisters, thirst and loneliness.

*****

This morning in our lime tree,
I noticed a bee
dusting a single new bud,
                        just now beginning to bloom,
while all the other branches were sagging
with heavy green fruit.

*****

I read that in Moscow
every man, woman, child, and dog
is inhaling eight packs of cigarettes a day—
or its equivalent in smoke—
from the fires raging over the steppes.

*****

I saw the god of storms
take the shape of a tree,
bowing to the desert
with her back to the sea.

*****

I saw on television,
a woman in Iran buried up to her breasts,
then wrapped in light gauze
                        (to protect the spectators),
weeping in terror and pleading for her life
while someone at the edge of the circle
of men dressed in black
picked up the first baseball-sized rock
from the hayrick-sized pile,
to hurl at her eyes, nose, mouth,
ears, throat, breasts, and shoulders.

*****

How big is my heart, I wonder?
How will it encompass these men dressed in black?

*****

Now the fog drifts in over the passes,
screening the peaks into half-tones.
And then into no tones at all.

*****

These goats with names,
with eyes that make you wonder,
these goats
who will be slaughtered today.
Why these goats?

*****

There are reasons,
but they are human reasons.

*****

I listened while my friend
spoke through his grief for his son,
shot to death in a pizza shop he managed
in Nashville
after emptying the safe
for a desperate young man with a gun—
                       who my friend told me he’d forgiven—
spoke of consolation through his tears,
the spirit of his son still with him, he said.
The spirit of his son still with him.

*****

Oak tree,
joy of my eye
that reaches in so many directions—
Are the birds that fly from your branches
closer to heaven?

*****

The moon
shimmering on the surface of the pond,
its rippling reflected in your eyes,
of which you are no more aware
than the wind, just passing through this oak,
of the acorns still bobbing.

*****

The mountains, resolute now
in fading light.
With her nose deep in the late-summer grass,
my dog calls up a new story.

from Rattle #36, Winter 2011
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