May 5, 2017

Greg Kosmicki

THE LUCKY ONES

In 3 days I’ll be 64 years old
and I still haven’t figured out
how to write a slam poem.
I also don’t know if I’ll be
able to go to work for 6 more years
or so, but I’ve got an easy job,
so I think I’ll make it.
It’s weird to be at that point
in your life where you know
as a reality the inevitable
reality you used to scoff at
more or less, as a young man.
It’s also weird how you think
when you are drunk
that you are much handsomer
and glib than you actually are,
but the good thing about that is
whenever everyone else is loaded
they don’t know the difference.
It’s weird how a lot of things
in life are like that.
Sometime along the way when you
get off the bus and walk
around the gum and potholes
to a job every day, you notice
that whatever you do is only
as worthwhile as the rest of your
society’s willingness to accept
that what you are doing
makes any sense whatsoever.
There really is no reason
for much of anything humans do
once you get past hunting and fishing,
farming and shelter building.
Oh, sure, art makes sense too
if you look at the cave drawings.
Everything else is an agreed-upon
arrangement we promise
not to make fun of each other for—
sitting at desks making up stuff—
then we exchange pieces of paper
we agreed upon has value,
sometimes we laugh,
sometimes we cry, depending.
Nowdays everybody wants me to
buy a lot of gold but I would rather
have some dirt and a few seeds,
which you can’t have anymore
because they’re patented,
and people want us to use up all our water
so we can get more oil to power
our cars so we can get
to the pumps to buy more oil.
If you think about this stuff too long
it will make you crazy,
and of course if you don’t
you’re going to go crazy anyway
if you live long enough
which is where I’m getting
closer and closer to, and almost
every day at my job I see
the lucky ones who made it
to the Manors and the Gardens
and the Vistas, which is why I still
like to stay up late
at night, especially nights
like this when it rains,
when the earth has forgotten,
and I can hear the thunder crack.

from Rattle #55, Spring 2017
Tribute to Civil Servants

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Greg Kosmicki: “I worked for the State of Nebraska for almost 25 years as a social services worker, a Medicaid and food stamps worker and supervisor, and for the last twelve years as an adult protective services worker. Before that, I worked two years for a private agency providing case management services for homeless mentally ill persons. Prior to that my wife and I lived four years in a privately-operated group home for developmentally delayed persons, which we managed. Though these sorts of work are quite literally gold mines of human interactions for a writer to use, rarely have I written directly about my face-to-face experiences with the people I served because it did not feel ethically right to do so. Rather, I wrote often of the frustration of the need to work when all I wanted to do was to sit around, be a spoiled poet, and write. I retired in June of 2016 when a golden turd I wrote about in a poem in 1981 fell out of the sky, fulfilling all my magical thinking about poetry, which all who know me well know I have always worshipped as my primary god.”

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May 3, 2017

David Kelly

LIFE IN A DAY

I’ve missed so many dawns and early mornings. There is such beauty and potential to admire in them, but we all make choices. It’s much easier to join in later when there’s more momentum to the day. Perhaps it’s laziness. I can think of numerous other ways to describe it, but perhaps it’s laziness. Come to think of it, I’ve missed a great many afternoons too. Working through lunchtime is another choice, but it denies a perspective on the passage of time. Immersion is more of a default setting than a strategy. Diving deep into work removes the extraneous noise of stray thoughts. Emerging from such episodes is confusing in the same way I imagine time travel would be. What happened ten minutes ago? Twenty? I should remember, shouldn’t I?

revised prognosis
none of us dying
to know

Stuck in the evening rush hour; almost going nowhere, but not quite. Retracing a familiar route time after time; adding occasional variations, as much to avoid boredom as anything else. What of these others around me, flooding the city’s arteries. This is not so much a salmon run, as a salmon slough, after spawning, when all energy has been spent and the vital urge to continue has dissipated.

evening fades to night
still powerless to change it
the wreck of mourning

from Rattle #55, Spring 2017
Tribute to Civil Servants

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David Kelly: “Having tried to write poetry as (redacted), I (redacted) and concentrated on crosswords. (redacted) Passport Office (redacted) Official Secrets Act. In (redacted) after leaving the Passport Office, (redacted) encouraged me to join (redacted). I found it (redacted) to pick up (redacted) and would (expletive deleted) recommend poetry as (redacted).” (twitter)

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May 1, 2017

A.M. Juster

TRIPTYCH: DREAM, CONVENIENCE STORE, BAR

I

A vial, a syringe, a long thin flow
of hope is rising. Desperate to know
fatigue and chemofog will dissipate.
The dead have called, but vaguely wait.

II

KENTS. Gum. The Globe. No milk has sold for days.
He asks the clerk how much the jackpot pays.
Frayed wallet; photo of a woman buried
long ago nearby. They never married.

III

Two smiles. One wink. The usual appears
although she hasn’t stopped by here for years.
She cracks a joke about her latest breakup.
Reflection. Mother’s grimace through the makeup.

from Rattle #55, Spring 2017
Tribute to Civil Servants

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A.M. Juster: “I’m a little bit more old-school than a lot of today’s poets, but I think that the purpose of poetry is to improve the lives of your audience, to get them to reflect on something that they might not reflect upon, or to think about something in their lives that they might not think about. In a funny poem just try to give them a little joy, which I think is worthwhile in and of itself.” (twitter)

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April 28, 2017

Rodney Gomez

RALLY

On my old physics teacher’s homemade poster
at a political rally for another crooked businessman,
is an angel-winged fetus & the phrase You Need Saving,
which means the government shouldn’t regulate
the number of thorns in a can of Coke,
& too bad if your faucet water is swan black,
or the cracks in your road sound like busted vertebrae.
He gave me a D because I couldn’t remember
the Law of Conservation of Energy, & no credit
for a decent guess: calling it a bastard offshoot
of the Force. He wouldn’t save me then. But we all
need saving: in my youth, in a housing project on Southmost,
the neighborhood kids would pool their change & share
an extra large bag of Rally’s fries, mouths
yapping after the hind legs of crunchy potatoes.
To this day, gourmet meals are crude approximations
of both that taste & brotherhood. My belly says
I should have gone a different way, but where else
for a bricklayer’s son? My physician warns
that if I don’t lose fifty pounds soon I will probably
suffer a heart attack, but I hold tightly to the hope, despite
the expired gym card, that I will rally. Who has time
for vegetables between the exhaustion of a job
they don’t want & a fusillade of snores?
And yet I force myself to replace corn chips with squash
& thinly cut wafers of yam. There must be something
I should save my body for, although I have neither offspring
nor a 401(k). I grew up on Underwood ham & Vienna sausages,
ramen noodles topped with shredded government meat, downing
bowls of it during Kojak & Hawaii Five-O, Dallas Cowboys games
I religiously followed, & I remember how they rallied once
from three down to win it on a pass from Staubach to Pearson,
those were glorious times, before the calculus had settled
over my point of view, before my arteries began their torrid affair
with collapse. Today it is difficult to get angry with anyone
knowing how soon sleep will rally for its final lap. And I tell my teacher
that heaven is itself an infinite regress, that any paradise
we can imagine is an inferior version of a further Big Brother realm.
In response, he calls me infantile, stupid, & lastly liberal,
which refers not to the books on my nightstand, but my propensity
to prefer luck & addiction to most theories of punishment. My father
went to prison because he took tomatoes from a grocery store
in Harlingen, & when presented the chance for parole if he’d just admit
regret, he said, “No necesito ser salvado.” He was beaten
by some blonde lawmaker’s deep sense of severity, how is it
that one sin can magically become a greater one through imagined
repetition, as if eating two bowls of Cherry Garcia means
you have eaten all the Cherry Garcia in the world?
Today I am an old stock car cruising Ware Road,
its bumper chin-strapped with duct tape. I can do so much
wrong if given half the chance, but I gave up Klonopin
on a night when there was no rabbit in the moon. If there are angels,
they are living. In laundromats and Mickey D’s and Dollar
Generals. They are hiding in the earth, waiting for their rally.

from Rattle #55, Spring 2017
Tribute to Civil Servants

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Rodney Gomez: “I’ve been working as an urban planner in local government for many years, specializing in public transit issues, especially mobility and accessibility. Recently, I moved into a management position at a new university—The University of Texas Rio Grande Valley, where I direct the parking and transportation program. I’ve loved buses and public transportation since I was a child—we were very poor, and our family of nine would use the bus to get everywhere. My poetry and career stem from many of the same concerns with family, place, and social justice. They tackle many of the same issues; the difference, of course, is in the method. I’ve confronted intractable problems at work that seem to have solutions in lines of poetry. But poetry can’t be used in a grant application, a survey, or a planning study. We are all worse off for that.” (twitter)

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April 26, 2017

Maryann Corbett

PRAYER CONCERNING THE NEW, MORE “ACCURATE” TRANSLATION OF CERTAIN PRAYERS

O Lord of the inverted verb,
You Who alone vouchsafe and deign,
Whom simpler diction might perturb,
To Whom we may not make things plain,
Forgive us now this Job-like rant:
These prayers translated plumb-and-squarely
Pinch and constrict us (though we grant
They broaden our vocabulary).
Hear us still if we mutter dully
With uninflected tongues and knees,
Shunning (see Matthew 6) the poly-
Syllables of the Pharisees.
This we entreat, implore, beseech
Whose miseries are too deep for speech.

from Rattle #55, Spring 2017
Tribute to Civil Servants

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Maryann Corbett: “When I earned a doctorate in English in 1981, I expected to end up teaching. I didn’t expect to spend almost 35 years working for the Minnesota Legislature. It was a privileged place to work, in more than one sense of the word. There was the frisson supplied by the constant presence of the media, the satisfaction of believing one’s work served the public, the thrill of working with smart, motivated people, the pleasure of being surrounded by the striking buildings and gardens of the capitol grounds, the sense of history. There was also the uncomfortable awareness that with every legislative session there are winners and losers, and that the same battles for justice are fought, and often lost, by the same people, year after year. More painful still was the knowledge that laws enacted with the best intentions do much less than what is hoped for. I’ve retired now. I miss the pleasures. The uncomfortable knowledge has not gone away.” (website)

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April 24, 2017

Dane Cervine

THE GURU

When police broke into his room
at the famous Oregon ashram
after reports of guns, abuse, political threats,
he sighed: At last, I don’t have to pretend to be enlightened.
Put down the hashish, turned off the video player,
surrendered. Movies and drugs

his constant companion for years
when not lauded as God by his devotees,
waving from one of his many Rolls-Royces
during afternoon drives along the ashram roads,
or moving silky among women
in ecstatic Kundalini dances,
reaching beneath their purple robes
to caress the nipples on their breasts,
raise them to heaven. I had all his books,

was seduced by his message that life was easy
if you let it be. When my Berkeley girlfriend turned up
in a purple robe with the guru’s little face
dangling from the wooden beads around her neck,
I surrendered too because I wanted to still sleep with her.
And believe him, about life’s mysterious ease.
But it didn’t last,

the girlfriend nor the guru. Years later,
grappling with lost bliss, I wondered what went wrong.
He was a good guru, she was a good lover.
At what point, when you’re somebody’s god,
do you begin poisoning the town well, bring in machine guns,
just beg the police to end it all.

from Rattle #55, Spring 2017
Tribute to Civil Servants

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Dane Cervine: “I worked for three decades as a therapist and director in the county mental health system in California, much of it as Chief of Children’s Mental Health in Santa Cruz where I was responsible for a ‘system of care’ that linked services with probation, child welfare, substance abuse services, and education. Like the ancient Chinese bureaucrats who balanced administrative life with poetry and the arts, I’ve always relied on each to balance the other in my own professional career. At times, I’ve written and published poems with an overt focus on issues that have arisen during the course of my civil service, as well as included client poems and stories in my annual report to the board of supervisors, and the state of California. Often though, it is simply a way to work out of both hemispheres in my brain—bring a bit of lyricism to civil service, and a bit of social justice and mental health awareness to my poetry.” (website)

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April 21, 2017

David Blaine

THE BOX

I dreamt I had a box
in my living room,
like a radio with
moving pictures,
and it was holding
me hostage (in my Barcalounger).

I dreamt my box
was made in the image
of a rich man
a fat man
a man with halitosis
in his voice
(I could smell it
through my ears).

I dreamt I needed to go
to the bathroom
but the box said
it would break my legs
(and give me incurable dandruff)
if I didn’t stay to watch the commercials.

I dreamt the box
was like some kind of god,
omniscient, omnipotent, omnivorous
(although it ate mostly money),
imparting knowledge, saving souls
and panhandling for spare change.

I dreamt that the world shrank
around my house, and eventually
the world and my living room
were one, just as the box and I
were one. I got rickets,
I got hemorrhoids, I got the germs
that cause bad breath
and a terminal case of five o’clock shadow
(I looked like Richard Nixon on a bad day).

I dreamt that on the last day
the sun and the moon and the stars
collapsed,
and the only light I could see
was coming from the mouth
of the box of the beast
(Fox News was on 666 channels).

At the end of my dream, I expired
(from a combination of starvation
and TV dinner poisoning).
The world re-inflated, and a coroner
took my bagged body out into the daylight.

Then I woke up,
started a pot of coffee
and turned on the television.

from Rattle #55, Spring 2017
Tribute to Civil Servants

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David Blaine: “I live and work in rural Michigan, where my wife and adult children run a hardware store, and I work for the Department of Commerce as a field agent for the Census Bureau. I see everything interviewing for the census. Although I can’t talk about it, you might glean a little insight through my poems.” (website)

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