February 8, 2020

Albert Haley

BARCELONA

She was not the one who let you kiss her
behind the fake palms at the wedding reception.
She was not the one who went with you to Star Trek

number whatever and your knees bumped together
and struck intergalactic sparks in the back row.
She was not even the one who did your loads

of laundry in college and typed two and a half
term papers for you and cried at the bus station
while it was snowing like a scene from a bad novel.

The one you’ll remember until you stop
remembering is the girl who sat beside you
in eighth grade biology and she kept smiling

sunbeams of encouragement as you dropped
then fumbled the scalpel and she had brown hair
and an implied continent of freckles and a short dress

and skinny legs and all the boys said Chrissie
was too nerdy because she got 100’s on all the quizzes
and had a rock and mineral collection at home

that she dared to discuss over a half pint of milk
at the cafeteria lunch table. Together you took apart
the fetal pig and it seems like yesterday becomes today

because in your mind it is as if you were married
to Chrissie for those two piggy days in that class
more than anyone else you’ve known before or since.

From snout to curled tail she wasn’t girl-like yech
or gross but right there with you observing
the wonderful and frightening bits and pieces

such as sprawling liver, thumb-sized kidneys,
or tracing out the vas deferens and inguinal canal,
and you were accidentally brushing your foreheads

and touching each other’s still smooth hands
and those trusty knees came together beneath
the table in a way that did just about everything

except make a baby and that wasn’t actually necessary
because as unnamed boyfriend and girlfriend
your pig dissection discoveries were the actual equivalent

of your own offspring nursed with fumes
of formaldehyde and careful forceps pull
and tweezers squeeze until you put the remains

in a bag at the end of the last day and dropped
them in the hazardous waste container.
Then it was time for lab reports to be written,

grades to be entered in Mr. Bender’s book,
and for everyone to move on to another project.
You got a B and Chrissie nailed the A and she said

she was sorry and patted you on the back,
an entirely new gesture from her that moved you,
but you couldn’t say so. “It was just a pig,”

you told her but even then you knew it wasn’t
and that you would never ask her to a dance
or even see much of her again after this class was over.

The pig was everything, heaven and earth and love
and brief roses with no sequel. Years later
you heard that Chrissie was an indie singer

with a single in play, then the band fell from FM grace,
she faded away and moved to Barcelona of all places
where you hope, really hope, she is shaking a tambourine

as well as her long brown hair and that late at night
she still takes out her rocks and turns over some
of the interesting ones she has collected along the way.

from Rattle #28, Winter 2007
Rattle Poetry Prize Winner

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Albert Haley: “After many years of writing short stories and novels and seeing some of them published, I one day woke up and realized I had written my way into poetry. One immediate benefit of divorcing fiction and marrying poetry was that I could stop buying paper by the case at OfficeMax. The greater thing was that I could suddenly say much more. It’s that beautiful paradox built into the form. Though I enjoy autobiographical and even confessional poetry by others (e.g., Jimmy Santiago Baca, Ginger Andrews, Sharon Olds), I find that my poems tend to shy away from being a record of the life I’ve lived. So when it came time for ‘Barcelona’ to want to be written, I started with the fact that, yes, I once sat next to a girl in junior high biology class. That was it. Nothing fleshy happened to us, only to the frogs and pigs we poked and dissected. The poem became a fabrication, which come to think of it is a nice word since it gets at what I value—making new things out of words. And ‘Why Barcelona?’ my wife asked. Well, I’ve never been there; I just like the name.”

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January 26, 2015

Albert Haley

LITTLE ANGEL

is bent over black coffee, drinking
insomnia for going on twelve hours.
The Big Guy Upstairs just handed out
Alpha Romeo Charlie 2-9-9
and the sloppily filed flight plan
to punch into the computer.
Some plan. Like so many, this wannabe
thinks all it takes is a college degree, set
the controls, and it will be wheels down,
trim flaps, and proceed to baggage claim. 

Put that aside in order to let sober eyes
make sense of green blips on a field
of black. Call out course settings 
while up in the cockpit the man or woman 
is turning pages of a magazine. 

It’s true. They think I Am Very Important
and therefore somehow, some way
People Like Us can autopilot past life’s mid-airs,
bank and slip around the swollen eyes
of storms, get a free ride on the jet stream.
Not how it works, though, in a cosmos
where the effort in the murmuring control
tower goes on every hour, every minute
of every day. Focusing all atoms
of existence in a warping and wooing
of reality that has no exact word for it. 

Fate? Faith? Inspiration from beyond?
Sure, call it whatever and remember
to throw in a wing and a prayer.

Making sure you reach the destination.
Getting you eased onto the runway. 
Trying to do it without your ever knowing
what showed up a minute ago on the screen. 

from Rattle #45, Fall 2014
Tribute to Poets of Faith

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Albert Haley: “Sometimes I find myself pondering how one-third of the Hebrew scriptures are poetry. Or that Jesus of Nazareth speaks and teaches like a poet, not a fundamentalist minister. This poet’s gift seems to have been passed on to Mary Karr and Franz Wright whose verse carves out divine mysteries. I guess I’m saying I’m interested in what can’t be seen, yet feels as real as smooth stones held in the hand. Words on the page that become signposts, signaling, ‘Something just happened here.’ Trying to explain how it feels to have been run over by light.”

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June 15, 2014

Albert Haley

PRESIDENTIAL POETRY BRIEFING

Week of June 8, 2014

Rise and shine, Sir. It seems to be summertime in America.
 
Kids are diving into community pools and emerging brown,
black, pink, all of them are slick as otters and shaking
and laughing while chaise lounge moms check emails, Kindle
Mr. Mercedes, and baggy shorts are lined up for shave ices
that leave the purple and green lips you used to get in Kailua.
 
Speaking of ice, The New York Times, the great news vacuum
of the land, has found the best iced latte. Check out
Go Get ‘Em Tiger in LA where they make it
with almond-macadamia milk. Can’t you already taste
that cold silk quenching a commander-in-chief’s thirst?
 
Hope you’ve peered out at the White House garden this week.
Story is long days, lots of sun = veggies bulging on vines
and stems. This year Michelle’s been shortening the names
to zooks and cukes and toe-mats and have you noticed
Sasha and Malia have taken it up, too. And why not?
Vowel-intense words lighten nature’s load such as the one
laid on the two teens starring in this week’s box office
success. Those kids! Dying of cancer, but Romeo and Julieting
it all the way. Shainlee Woodley wears a nasal cannula nearly
the entire 125 minutes. And does so fetchingly, we might add.
 
B-ball fanboy you are, you already know where the Spurs
and the Heat stand in the finals, but when Miami ran off
a broken slip-screen with 8:09 left in Game Four we thought
of that James Wright line. LeBron became no less than a man
compelled to “gallop terribly” all the way to the lane
and isn’t that one version of what we call poetry in motion?
 
Final note for the week is that the #hiddencash phenom
has arrived inside the Beltway. Last night a defense contractor
found $500 taped to the underbelly of a K Street mailbox—
except it may have been an FBI sting, that ol’ American hustle—
but more to the point there are good things happening
from sea to shining sea. Someone’s started a #hiddenpoem
and we got a tweet right here, asking you to step out
to the Rose Garden, lie down in the grass, stare up at the sky.
It’s so blue, so feverish with shape-shifting clouds,
and that’s the gist of the clue and, yes, this is always
just a weekly report, not recommendations, but this time
we’re thinking of making a gentle exception.

Poets Respond
June 15, 2014

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Albert Haley: “This fantasy poem treats the entirety of the week of June 8-14 as a single sequence of events that become simply “summer.” Since this is an alleged ‘poetry briefing,’ I’ve tried to focus on those items which might, if this were a different world, push the natural disasters and accounts of human malfeasance and murder off the front page of our newspapers. And I found it fun to imagine that within the soul of the man in the Oval Office is the same Barack Obama who wrote love letters (excerpted by Vanity Fair in 2012) that displayed such an affinity for the sounds and rhythms of words and the poetry pulsing through all of life. Mr. Mercedes by Stephen King is the #1 novel in the country. The best iced latte was described by The New York Times. The Fault In Our Stars was the box office leader for the week. The Miami Heat have struggled mightily with the San Antonio Spurs. The hashtag ‘hiddencash‘ has continued to pop up in even obscure locales like Abilene, Texas, where I saw as the lead story on the local news that a man found $20 inside a bronze canoe in a park. Everything else is made up.” (website)

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October 31, 2012

Albert Haley

THE EROS OF TESTOSTEROS

I speak of a key that will undo a lock.
We’re not very bright once handed such.
Down there, down there rests his pride and joy.
What’s it worth if it’s not deployed?
So each moves about with it at hand
and a question on the lips:
which lock? We must keep trying.
It is the only way to tell.
It might be hers, hers or titillation,
hers. We insert, we fiddle,
jimmying energetically, to gain entrance.
You know very well how intent
we are. Like thieving ravens in glossy
black coats or boys rapping knuckles
against the shuttered candy
store. Until one night a door swings
wide and we walk into the room.
Spacious cave. Our blind intention
is only to find commodious lodgings
and wonders of the underground felt
through seismic trembles of the groin
and girth. The key, the key, everyone speaks
of the key when it’s really all
about that room. Where we’ll lie down
in green pastures, curl up like a hound
with nose in tail, shudder at the chill
of night, and smile before we nod off
with the thought that we’ve found this
instead of the coffin. How we beat out
ol’ Skull Face again to dream
(greedily, unfaithfully) of how many others
might offer similar amenities for a weary
traveler until the dawn when the cock
again must crow and what makes a man
a man will arise. That’s what we think
about during the act, that’s where the mind
goes. Are you not now sorry you ever asked?

from Rattle #22, Winter 2004

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