Sarah Pemberton Strong
ANOTHER THING THAT AMAZES ME
Is how, on the rush hour subway, everyone
harbors beneath their dripping coats
a set of genitals. No one can look
anyone else in the eye, so obvious
is our nakedness under the clothes.
Though it’s only October,
there’s a blizzard dumping sleet
across Manhattan, and the streets are full
of people anyway, some wearing nothing
more than sweatshirts, their hunching shoulders
caked with fallen slush. It’s amazing
some people will stand
outside for an hour in this weather
just to see the de Kooning retrospective at the MOMA—
myself, it turns out, included.
Also that the same shade of paint
can make some people happy but give others headaches.
When I get home, I’m going to paint
my living room orange
against the six months of winter
that’s just begun. The Platonic ideal
of a raincoat is bright yellow,
and though I can’t see one beyond
all the crotches on the Lexington Avenue Local,
it’s comforting to think there will be an appearance soon,
little rite to remind us of the sun’s assured return.
It amazes me that I still want God to be more
than a perfect metaphor for loving,
that I still want to fall to my knees
for something other than this woman swaying above me,
her fingers knotted to the subway strap,
the folds of her labia just a couple inches from my mouth
while our bodies fly through a tunnel under the city,
and high above us, a deluge of gray crystal
blots out the gold of trees all down Fifth Avenue.
Amazing that the light of the sun makes us open
our eyes in the morning. And that when
there is no light, our eyes open anyway:
searching for it, then for each other.
—from Rattle #38, Winter 2012