June 1st, 2010
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Cristin O’Keefe Aptowicz
AT THE OFFICE HOLIDAY PARTY
I can now confirm that I am not just fatter
than everyone I work with, but I’m also fatter
than all their spouses. Even the heavily bearded
bear in accounting has a lithe otter-like boyfriend.
When my co-workers brightly introduce me
as “the funny one in the office,” their spouses
give them a look which translates to, Well, duh,
then they both wait for me to say something funny.
A gaggle of models comes shrieking into the bar
to further punctuate why I sometimes hate living
in this city. They glitter, a shiny gang of scissors.
I don’t know how to look like I’m not struggling.
Sometimes on the subway back to Queens,
I can tell who’s staying on past the Lexington stop
because I have bought their shoes before at Payless.
They are shoes that fool absolutely no one.
Everyone wore their special holiday party outfits.
It wasn’t until I arrived at the bar that I realized
my special holiday party outfit was exactly the same
as the outfits worn by the restaurant’s busboys.
While I’m standing in line for the bathroom,
another patron asks if I’m there to clean it.
–from Rattle #32, Winter 2009
2009 Neil Postman Award Honorable Mention
“A shiny gang of scissors”! My writing is about people whose steel is more hidden and less flashy, but I do know what this poem means: poets can always be detected as Not Right Ants.
[...] poetry and non-fiction has been published in various journals, including Rattle, McSweeney’s Internet Tendencies, Pank, La Petite Zine, decomP, Umbrella, The Other Journal, [...]
This made me laugh. but “I don’t know how to look like I’m not struggling.” I mean I’d want to laugh with her, not at her.
I know the N/R train well. The last two pair of shoes I bought at Payless fell apart after only a few months.
Great work.