January 4, 2016

Rachael Briggs

A TOTAL NON-APOLOGY

Don’t ask my view of humankind, of God.
We’re eddies in the ocean mind of God.

I grin from yearbook pages, bright as pins
and primed to prick the fat behind of God.

O Holy Father, how can I revere you?
You suck the pulp and spit the rind of God.

Spices, rhinos, coffee-coloured bodies:
all dust beneath the awful grind of God.

I won!
Then she jujitsu-spun my head
and locked me in the double-bind of God.

It breaks my brickwork, howls through my walls,
the incoherent undefined of God.

Who scaled the spire of the abandoned church,
spray-painted All Is God, and signed off
God?

from Rattle #50, Winter 2015

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Rachael Briggs: “I grew up Roman Catholic in an interfaith marriage between a Catholic and a Jew, and now I think I’ll be an atheist forever. I know a lot of really wonderful Catholic people, like my dad, who is the kind of human being I’d like to be someday when I grow up. But the Catholic Church is a bad social institution: sexist, homophobic, covering up the abuse of little kids. I’m not always sure how to make my opinion of the institution and my opinion of the people add up to a coherent whole. (That also goes for a lot of institutions outside religion, including academia.)”